I didn't say I don't try. That's where the self-control part comes in. Not everyone does everything they do because they think it's the best course of action.
[But that's enough of that. It's self-pitying, yeah, big surprise coming from him; Kadoc knows what he's like. But there's another undercurrent to it that could be interpreted as excusing his actions instead, and that he can't abide. The last thing he wants is for Fujimaru to look at him as some tragic soul who hadn't had a choice in everything he pulled. He had.
He shakes his head, expression hardening.]
But that's whatever. I've got no idea why you think what I'm doing right now isn't what I wanna do. Did you expect a fist to the face? I've never been any good at that, and I don't like shit I'm not good at. Besides, there are a lot of reasons why that'd be a bad idea.
[And he doesn't want to. He doesn't say that part explicitly. It feels almost secondary to the rest. But it's in there: he doesn't actually want to throw a punch at this girl.]
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[But that's enough of that. It's self-pitying, yeah, big surprise coming from him; Kadoc knows what he's like. But there's another undercurrent to it that could be interpreted as excusing his actions instead, and that he can't abide. The last thing he wants is for Fujimaru to look at him as some tragic soul who hadn't had a choice in everything he pulled. He had.
He shakes his head, expression hardening.]
But that's whatever. I've got no idea why you think what I'm doing right now isn't what I wanna do. Did you expect a fist to the face? I've never been any good at that, and I don't like shit I'm not good at. Besides, there are a lot of reasons why that'd be a bad idea.
[And he doesn't want to. He doesn't say that part explicitly. It feels almost secondary to the rest. But it's in there: he doesn't actually want to throw a punch at this girl.]