I wanted to, sometimes. Even here, when I'm thinkin' about it, I still feel like I should. But...

[She can't leave her father, despite everything. She's come to realize that he's under just as much pressure as she is back home to follow the Lord Protector's rules, through she still can't understand why he's less willing to speak up about it. And even with how he's become stricter with her and less willing to do everything together like they used to, she does love him and she misses who he used to be before they moved.]

...it would be hard.