[ She tries so hard to put the lid back on her emotions, but the moment she opens her mouth to reassure her friend another wave crashes over her. She pulls her arms up and around Cass and clings to her like a buoy in a stormy sea. Her heart had shattered a long time ago. She'd been holding it together with nothing but stubborn determination all this time.
It would have been her fault. She'd never said it out loud, barely even allowed herself to think it, but she felt it. Her world was ending, her best friends about to die, because some mysterious entity had chosen her to save it. If she hadn't quit, if she'd stayed in shape and kept fighting, maybe she would have had a chance. But all these months she's known that if she went back and had to fight again, she would lose. They were on borrowed time, at best.
Now, for the first time in 16 months, she might have an actual chance to save them.
She tries, for a moment, to put all this into words. They stick in her throat, and she settles instead to cry herself out. ]
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It would have been her fault. She'd never said it out loud, barely even allowed herself to think it, but she felt it. Her world was ending, her best friends about to die, because some mysterious entity had chosen her to save it. If she hadn't quit, if she'd stayed in shape and kept fighting, maybe she would have had a chance. But all these months she's known that if she went back and had to fight again, she would lose. They were on borrowed time, at best.
Now, for the first time in 16 months, she might have an actual chance to save them.
She tries, for a moment, to put all this into words. They stick in her throat, and she settles instead to cry herself out. ]