You won't - you have no say in that as much as I do. [a beat, she looks down at her hand, a bit troubled by the way it trembles. good grief, she's so out-of-practice in speaking about herself properly that it's freaking her out? gads.

she exhales in a huff.]

Enough. I no longer wish to discuss this topic, thank you; it was my poor judgment to speak at all.