[It's a compulsion—Kadoc has to push. He can't let himself off the hook. Even in the thick of things, when he'd been actively courting Chaldea to fight alongside him to take down Ivan the Terrible, the thought of them doing so out of any affection or sympathy for him had turned his stomach: of course they hated him and wanted revenge on him for what he'd done, and if they didn't, then dammit, they should, and it could only be out of ignorance that they didn't.
It turns out that feeling doesn't fade so easily in the immediate aftermath of things having ended.
He shifts his gaze away briefly, but no, he makes himself look at her again across the creepy, dim little tent, mouth set in a line.]
I've probably got it, whatever it is. You're one of Fujimaru's Servants, right? We tried to kill all of you. Fujimaru, Kyrielight, and everyone backing you up. I don't feel bad about that. All I regret is that I lost. Is that enough for you?
[The honesty of all of that is, to say the least, a very complicated matter that Kadoc may not have been able to settle on himself. But the words come easily regardless.]
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[It's a compulsion—Kadoc has to push. He can't let himself off the hook. Even in the thick of things, when he'd been actively courting Chaldea to fight alongside him to take down Ivan the Terrible, the thought of them doing so out of any affection or sympathy for him had turned his stomach: of course they hated him and wanted revenge on him for what he'd done, and if they didn't, then dammit, they should, and it could only be out of ignorance that they didn't.
It turns out that feeling doesn't fade so easily in the immediate aftermath of things having ended.
He shifts his gaze away briefly, but no, he makes himself look at her again across the creepy, dim little tent, mouth set in a line.]
I've probably got it, whatever it is. You're one of Fujimaru's Servants, right? We tried to kill all of you. Fujimaru, Kyrielight, and everyone backing you up. I don't feel bad about that. All I regret is that I lost. Is that enough for you?
[The honesty of all of that is, to say the least, a very complicated matter that Kadoc may not have been able to settle on himself. But the words come easily regardless.]