CONFESSIONS MEME

[eightfoldfiend]

Confess your secrets

♢ Post a comment with your character spilling their confessions and innermost thoughts for all to see ♢ Go around and comment to other characters ICly, expressing shock, awe, disgust, anger, etc. ♢ Discuss, accuse, commiserate, threadjack, etc

Comments

Re: cw: suicidal ideation

[garyoutensei]

I said "one way or another". Doesn't mean you have to die. But every path has an ending, you know?

You'll find it.

[eightfoldfiend]

Yours perhaps. You are a mortal; a feeble, transient thing.

My path is eternal, just like me, and until they die my path will never be free of suffering.

[garyoutensei]

[ A small groan. ]

Again, I'm not strictly talking about your life. Hell, being immortal is a good enough reason to eventually try lots of different paths.

[eightfoldfiend]

But I am talking about my life.

[And for a moment it may seem like he intends to leave it at that but he feels suddenly compelled to confess more...]

Do you know what it is like to feel twenty-seven wills tearing at you? Twenty-seven voices screaming in the depths of your soul? Of course you do not. How could you?

My agony is all-consuming. There can be no "different path" until I've killed them all.

[garyoutensei]

And if you somehow can't? If even someone else beats you to it?

What happens then?

[eightfoldfiend]

Nobody will beat me to it. The Twenty-Seven do not die so easily.

But if someone did then I would be free all the same, free from those tedious beings and their voices.

[garyoutensei]

And what becomes of you then? Would you be able to live peacefully knowing someone else denied your wrath? That you weren't allowed to kill those bastards yourself?

[eightfoldfiend]

I existed before them and will exist long after.

If they were suddenly killed then I would be able to chase my true purpose: chaos.

At last I would be able to correct The Balance.

[garyoutensei]

Mm...

[ A long silence. ]

That makes one of us, at least. Having something like that... a reason to keep existing.