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avalaughs2021-08-05 08:04 pm
impostorsyndrome) wrote in avalaughs2021-08-05 08:04 pm
who dares question me
QUESTION FOR A QUESTION MEME
We all like hearing about each other's characters! We all like talking about our own characters! With this groundbreaking new meme, now you can finally do both, for the very first time in DWRP history!
The Guidelines:
Now get to askin'!
The Guidelines:
- Post a toplevel listing the characters you play! If you have any boundaries you want to set re: questions you might receive (e.g. "No NSFW questions for this character"), do that here too.
- Tag other people asking them questions about their characters. What kinds of questions? Up to you! Canon questions, headcanon questions, meta questions, some random thing you've wondered since that thread you had two months ago, it's all fair game.
- Need ideas? I was passed this excellent gallery of various questions memes, so feel free to crib from these or just use them as inspiration.
- Answer the questions you receive, and, once you've done that, hit the person back with a question of your own about their character(s) too!
- You can end it there, or continue to go back and forth asking questions until you're out.
Now get to askin'!
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I think really, just based on how much it really affects him to be chosen for Team A in the first place by Marisbury despite having so many disadvantages as a mage, Kadoc is most deeply touched by anything that compliments him on real, concrete skills or aspects he has that he worked to achieve. He's incredibly proud of the fact that anything about him really was good enough for someone else to notice in a sea of talented people with flashier abilities and bloodlines than his, but really even minor things mean a lot to him if they're specific compliments on things inherent to him. Like, as much as he had a tendency to brush things off and respond to them in backhanded ways, they do still get under his skin if he can believe some aspect of them, and the more specific the compliment, the more thought-out and earnest it seems, and the less he can argue with it. An example would be like, calling him hot (which he doesn't think is true, and would blow off) vs. "I really like your style, it looks good on you" (which he does aim to be true, and he'd be flattered someone noticed and agreed).
SO really just like, 1. think about it in specific terms, 2. actually mean it (he's pretty good at telling), and 3. ideally have it be something he's already secretly kinda proud of and desperate for other people to notice he's putting effort into lol. Other than that the specifics don't matter much!
FOR YOU: Rei has kids, right? IDK IF THIS IS A SPOILER? If anything about this is spoilery I don't mind but tell me how he'd feel and if anything would change for him if one or more of his kids showed up in Avalon. unless we actually have them and I just don't know which characters they are lmao
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For Rei: Yes, he does! It's not really a spoiler... Hypmic tried to be coy about it for a few months, but Rei & his kids all look alike so everyone clocked it the second Rei was revealed LMFAO
Rei has three sons. They're all teenagers, and the oldest is Kadoc's age! Their relationship with Rei is... strained at best, varying in intensity from "suspicious of Rei" to "hates Rei" depending on the son. They have plenty of reason to think poorly of him, because he abandoned them at an orphanage when they were children for as-of-yet-unrevealed reasons; and he's not exactly making himself likeable in the present day.
On Rei's part, though, he loves them all terribly. In canon he tries to embrace his villain persona so they can hate him properly, but his desperation to care about them and their wellbeing leaks out in small ways despite his best efforts. The specifics would depend on which kid arrived, but if his sons showed up in Avalon Rei would have a hard time keeping away from them!!!!!! Especially because Avalon is dangerous in a way he can't control-- Rei's villain persona would unfurl a lot quicker when he's constantly visibly trying to keep them alive LMFAO. I think Rei would have a special opportunity to really get to know his sons in Avalon in a way he can't afford back home! It would be super angsty and cathartic and i would love it. LOLLL
OKAY KADOC AGAIN. i wanna know if kadoc finds avalon better or worse than home. how does he feel about being stuck here? Is it keeping him away from stuff he needs to do back home, or is it a new lease on life?
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Now I really want to see it though, SOB
Kadoc vs. home is interesting because like, I deliberately took him from an extremely uncertain canonpoint in terms of what his status is back home, from his perspective. The Cliff Notes is that Lostbelt 1 ends, Kadoc loses but his life is spared by the protagonist group and he's taken into custody, he agrees to give them information because he can't escape the thing he's being held in and he's determined to make it out of this alive, and then before anything else can happen someone swoops in, stabs him right there in front of everyone, fakes his death, drags his "body" back to his original team, and basically tells Kadoc (when he wakes up from the fake magical death spell) that he's being kept alive because he is carrying in his body a Magical Macguffin that his team can't afford to lose, but for no other reason. Even before being told this explicitly by the person who stabbed him (who should not be trusted, lol) Kadoc was pretty convinced that he was just going to be killed by his team anyway for having lost his chapter and being "worthless" now.
NOW LIKE, this isn't true, he was not going to be instantly executed anyway, but Kadoc is very paranoid about people wanting him dead for whatever reason, and it's going to be very hard to convince him that Team A is not just keeping him around to steal his Macguffin and then murder him, or just murder him before anyone else can use it. He's pretty convinced! So at his current canonpoint, Kadoc really does not know how long he has left to live if he goes home right back to the moment he came from. Even if I canon update him some, he's still going to be in that mindset, if not quite as powerfully as he is literally in the moment after getting stabbed, lol.
SO ALL OF THAT SAID . . . being in Avalon is definitely a reprieve from having to deal with everything back home. tbh in a lot of ways even if none of FGO had happened at all, and Kadoc was just living a normal (mage) life back in his own world, Avalon would be better in a lot of ways than where he came from—Young Kadoc would actually be SUPER into the idea of Avalon because he'd be able to feel like he was doing a real thing to help save the universe oh wow! He can get acclaim and recognition and make a name for himself, and no one cares that his family isn't established here (because no one's is, among the offworlders) or that his magic is weaker than everyone else's (because the difference between Kadoc's single-type weakness in Avalon vs. people with two magic types is MUCH less than the difference between himself back home and e.g. Kirschtaria Wodime, the amazing god-like prodigy who is the leader of his team and comes from an ancient bloodline).
Current Kadoc is way too jaded and bitter to look at what's happening here in those terms and get excited about it. But he is still very aware that some of those things are still benefits to him in this world: everyone's been nerfed, and no one cares who he or anyone else here is. He tries not to be too happy about that, because it feels petty and cheap, but he is, lol. His position here is unarguably better than back in his world, without even taking into account the fact that by the way his world is actually ended and almost all of the Earth has been bleached white and stripped of life and human society is a thing of the past. You know. There is that too.
Despite all of that, Kadoc has actually not yet ever considered just not going home. He will have to think about it someday, but right now the possibility doesn't even exist in his head. Rather, he thinks that if he doesn't go home, it'll be because Avalon doesn't stop the Calamity and nobody gets to go home. He thinks that's very possible, maybe even the most likely outcome of all this. But he hasn't yet considered the idea that he might get a choice someday, and what choice he would make if he did. Deep down he's pretty convinced that the only place he really belongs is back there, facing up to whatever fate has in store for him and observing the outcome of the battle going on for the world.
WHEW THAT WAS LONG.
I want to know what Rinea is thinking about in their Mirror thread where she's considering what Kadoc reminds her of! TELL ME HER THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS
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for your question, with some vague FE SOV spoilers: Rinea is in the middle of comparing the similarities between Kadoc and her betrothed, Prince Berkut! They're super different on the face-- Berkut is extremely noisy about his pride, and Kadoc obviously not so much LOL. But they have the same "I was supposed to be the protagonist!!" storyline. Underneath Berkut's veneer of confidence is actually a very fragile boy who was told he was Big Special and he wants so, so badly to be acknowledged for his hard work towards that end; when that doesn't happen, he goes apeshit.
More than just the similarity though Rinea is being struck by the different way Kadoc and Berkut have gone about dealing with their issue. Kadoc's reaction to his own insecurity is very inwardly focused: he's self-aware to an unhealthy degree, but it also means he's considerate. And Berkut's reaction is... the opposite hjfdkfsd. After rejecting her help and thinking she had a hand in undermining him Berkut did Something Really Terrible to rinea right as Avalon nabbed her, and she has spent her entire stay feeling guilty about it. But now that she's seen Kadoc work so hard to fight his own demons, and is just dunking on himself for having vulnerabilities instead of blowing the hell up? SHE FEELS SOME TYPE OF WAY!!!
Putting aside her opinion on Berkut tho, the contrast between them is also making her nearly sick with sympathy for Kadoc. :'( He's so good, but she can't really articulate why or how in a way that will convey that to him, and it's breaking her heart. And he's worried about her instead of himself!!! Stop that!! Waahhh!!!
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